A New Book about How a Father Reached Through the Veil and Communicated with his
Son, Jordan, Who Had Passed On to the Other Side
By
Matthew McKay, Ph.D.
Among the boundaries dissolving in our postmodern,
apocalyptic age, the veil between the living and the dead is becoming thinner
and more transparent. As Cayce predicted, mediumship itself will not provide the
proof of survival after death. However, the various mediumistic methodologies
can provide healing for the bereaved. That love does not die is something that
those in grief can come to experience directly, and personally, leaving no need
for the “proof” that cannot be provided. A good example of this process of
transcending this particular boundary comes in the new book,
Seeking Jordan: How I Learned the Truth about Death
and the Invisible Universe. The author,
Matthew McKay, Ph.D., a psychologist and scientist, lost his son Jordan, and
then made many efforts to communicate. The results are quite educational.
If you have lost someone you deeply love, or have become strongly aware of your
mortality, it’s hard to avoid wondering about life after death, the existence of
God, notions of heaven and hell, and why we are here in the first place. The
murder of Matthew McKay’s son, Jordan, sent him on a journey in search of ways
to communicate with his son despite fears and uncertainty. Here he recounts his
efforts — including past-life and between-lives hypnotic regressions, a
technique called induced after-death communication, channeled writing, and more.
When author Matthew McKay’s son Jordan was murdered, he set out on a quest to
discover the truth about why we are here and what happens when we die. He became
determined to listen and look for his dead son in any way he could. McKay shares
what he learned along the way.
McKay writes, “Pain is the path to truth. It refracts light to reveal things not
otherwise seen. In the heart of the pain is a moment when the universe, and our
place within it, becomes more visible,” writes McKay in the book’s preface. “So
far I have learned this: nothing is truly lost. Nothing. The soul is constant,
never broken. Pain seems to damage us, but the damage is an illusion. The idea
of safety or protection is an illusion. It is all safe — everything we love.”
Seeking Jordan
is the story of how McKay came to know these things. He is not a psychic or a
medium — quite the opposite in fact. He is a psychologist with a deep love of
science who never expected to take this journey. But as he has learned, in the
heart of pain exist things he never imagined.
In the first four chapters of
Seeking Jordan,
McKay shares a variety of techniques he used to connect with Jordan — including
EMDR, Induced After Death Communication, past-life and between-life regressions,
channeled writing, and more.
McKay ultimately learned how to reach his son. In this book he provides
extraordinary revelations — direct from Jordan — about the soul’s life after
death, how karma works.
The next nine chapters, which were cowritten with Jordan through channeled
writing sessions, share the insights McKay learned about life and death from his
dead son.
McKay writes, “In the same way that Jordan is watching over me, your loved ones
are watching over you. They see what you feel and fear and hope for,” writes
McKay. “They see the path you are taking, and they often know the direction you
need to go. In the same way Jordan helps me when I’m afraid or full of doubt,
the ones you love will reach out to you — in dreams or feelings or direct
replies — if you ask.”
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Seeking Jordan
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Interview with author Matthew McKay
What were some of the ways you sought to make contact with your son?
In the beginning I looked for signs he might be
present, anything unusual in our environment.
Family and friends kept track of dreams or
messages from Jordan.
We went to a medium, we went to a psychologist
who specializes in Induced After Death Communication, and I learned how to do
Channeled Writing.
In the end, I found that channeled writing was
the most effective way to make contact with Jordan—literally any time I wanted.
What is Induced After Death Communication - how does it work, and what happened
when you tried it?
This is based on research by psychologist Alan
Botkin.
He discovered that by making a small change in a well
known protocol for treating trauma, that his patients spontaneously received
direct messages from the dead.
He worked primarily with vets who experienced
traumatic losses in war.
After the first “accidental” IADC (Induced
After-Death Communication) Botkin did the revised procedure with 83 vets who
were being treated for trauma.
None were told what to expect, but 81 (97%)
heard the voice of someone they loved who had died.
I saw Botkin in Chicago, did the trauma process, and
heard Jordan say these words to me:
“Dad . . . Dad . . . Tell Mom I’m here . . .
I’m all right.
I’m here with you . . . Tell her I’m OK.”
What is Channeled Writing, and how did it help you to communicate to your son,
Jordan?
Channeled Writing, also called automatic writing, has
been used for hundreds of years as a means to communicate with the spirit world.
Spiritual seekers and famous poets have used
it, including W. B. Yeats.
The Channeled Writing process I learned
includes using meditation to get into a receptive state, writing out a question,
and listening for the answer (often heard as a whispered voice inside one’s head
or simply a thought).
You just write the answer down, and move on to
the next question.
All of Jordan’s words in the book came from
Channeled Writing.
How did you come to write a book with your son - after his death?
Ralph Metzner, a psychologist who taught me to use
Channeled Writing, suggested that I could use Channeled Writing to do a book
with Jordan.
I asked Jordan if he was
interested in a book project, even though I had no
idea what it would involve.
He was not only willing, he outlined the first
10 chapters of the book and established the entire scope of the project—within 5
minutes.
What did you learn about the spirit world - life after death - from Jordan?
Souls reincarnate for hundreds of lives.
Between lives they are home—in the spirit
world.
Immediately after death, souls are met by guides and
loved ones in an environment created to look familiar and reassuring.
Following a brief transitional period, souls
begin a life review where they examine every significant moment of the just
completed life.
Life review helps us learn how each decision
we make affects everyone around us.
After live review, souls join their soul
family—a group of souls who both learn and reincarnate together.
Guides (teachers) oversee the learning
process—both on earth and in the life-between-lives.
Each soul’s lesson plan for what they will
learn on earth is called karma.
Why are we here - did Jordan say anything about that?
We are here for one purpose only—to learn..
We are not here to be redeemed or to earn a
place in heaven by doing good works.
The reason we reincarnate, living hundreds of
lives, is to learn the lessons that each life teaches.
In the same way bees bring honey back to the
hive, we return to the spirit world after each life, carrying all the wisdom and
new lessons we have learned.
What did you learn about God from Jordan?
Jordan says that all of consciousness—collectively—is
God.
As consciousness grows and evolves, God develops and
evolves.
As each soul learns, because we are all a part
of God, God learns.
And not a “person,” a specific entity.
We don’t see God in the spirit world.
God is us.
Can anyone contact the dead, or do you need special powers?
You need no special powers to talk to the dead.
I have no special powers.
I’m not a medium.
I am not clairvoyant or clairaudient.
Channeled Writing is something anyone can
learn.
It requires doing a brief meditation to open the
channel and help you become more receptive.
Have an object with you that connects you to
the spirit on the other side.
After the meditation, write out questions.
Start with questions that will have simple yes
or no answers.
The answer will come as a thought—write it
down.
As the process becomes more comfortable and familiar,
write out questions that require a more complex answer (thought).
Find words for whatever answer (thought) shows
up in your mind.
Why is there so much pain in life - according to Jordan?
Jordan indicates that all the pain in the world is
necessary for our mission of learning.
We come to this planet to learn how to love
with, and in spite of pain.
These are lessons that CANNOT happen in the
spirit world where there is no pain and we love without effort or cost.
We come to a physical planet to face resistance and
obstacles.
As Jordan says, “You can’t learn to throw a
curve ball in heaven.
First of all, you need a physical ball.
Then you need gravity and wind resistance.
There are no great pitchers in the spirit
world.”
Every lesson we learn here is taught by pain and resistance.
You’ve used hypnosis to lead people on past life and
between life journeys—and you’ve been on them yourself.
How do you do it?
What did you learn?
I learned an hypnotic induction, from the work of
psychologist Michael Newton, that allows people to return to past lives, and the
life-between-lives (the spirit world).
It takes about four hours, but offers profound
truths about our individual life purpose—what we came here to learn and what we
came here to do.
Later, in order to take these journeys myself, I
consulted psychologist Ralph Metzner, who helped me visit past lives I had
shared with Jordan.
I also witnessed experiences I’ve had in the
life-between-lives, including life review, meeting the “council of elders” and
reuniting with my soul family.
Did Jordan make contact with others after he died?
How did he do it?
Jordan made contact with many family and friends
after his death.
These contacts included vivid dreams with
specific messages, visions, the overwhelming feeling of his presence with
telepathy, and my own experiences with channeled writing, induced after death
communication, and mediums.
What are you and Jordan doing and talking about now?
Right now Jordan and I are collaborating on a new
process for creating spiritual growth.
It’s something that can be learned in an
8-week group workshop.
He has laid out all the steps of the protocol,
and I’ll soon be testing to see how it works (I’m still a researcher, after
all).
This may also turn into another book we’ll work on
together.
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All Together: The Living and the Dead
An Excerpt* from
Seeking Jordan
At the funeral,
all eyes are on the coffin. As if the one inside was the victim of misfortune,
struck down by some malicious fate.
Death isn’t bad luck, because there is no difference between the living and the
dead. The one in the coffin is doing the same thing as the one grieving in the
pew: loving and learning.
There is no difference between the living and the dead because the young have
already been old, already taken a last breath, already watched planets die and
galaxies collide. The one in the coffin is finished with this play. That’s all.
And has taken everything learned back to “the whole,” back to the light.
The mourners go home. And while they grieve, the departed one is in the circle,
greeting a brother from one life, or greeting a father, a daughter, a friend
from others. Greeting a lover who left early, and a lover who in another play
was left behind. Greeting the ones who were teachers, who were antagonists, who
were protectors or protected. Greeting the one who ended a past life, who was a
murderer.
The circle is always complete. We are always in it, and the funeral is an
illusion. While souls actually experience no separation (just as Jordan is still
with me), most human minds believe that the loss of the body is the loss of the
person. And that if something cannot be seen, it isn’t there.
The human mind, having amnesia for all past lives, identifies each person (soul)
with a single body. And if that body/person can no longer be seen, it is assumed
to be gone. Lost.
But that isn’t the case. Jordan’s soul is right next to me, guiding me as I
write this. Souls do not leave us, and the circle does not break just because
that brilliant collection of molecules called a body is put in a box.
I know this, yet still I sometimes feel alone. I ask Jordan, and he explains:
The illusion of separation is perpetuated by religious images of the afterlife —
an extraordinary realm so different from our planet that its inhabitants seem
unreachable and lost to us. But again, it is the human mind creating fictions.
Images of the afterlife imbued with religious constructions of god and fantastic
beings (for example, archangels and demons) are inventions of priests and holy
men who attempted to make the journey while still embodied on Earth. Often aided
by drugs or assaults on the body (including pain, sleeplessness, sensory
overload, or deprivation), they saw in the “afterlife” what they wanted to see,
what they feared seeing, or simply what their minds created in an altered state.
The Tibetan and Egyptian books of the dead, the Upanishads, and the visions of
countless mystics are examples of these journeys.
The Christian image of heavenly hosts singing god’s praises is also just a
lovely hallucination. Such images — clouds and harps and angels at the gate —
create hope. But paradoxically, they place embodied souls further away from
those in spirit, making it seem that discarnates are in a place that’s sublime,
distant, and inaccessible. These invented images hide the fact that departed
souls are as much with us now as they were in life — perhaps more so, because
now they are present as soon as we think of them. Telepathy covers any distance,
instantly bringing souls together.
Souls in spirit love us as much as ever, think of us as much as ever, laugh with
us at the absurdities of life, feel concerned about our pain, and celebrate our
good choices. There is a simple reason for this. The relationship between living
and departed souls is as deep, as vibrant, as committed, and as much in the
present moment as ever it was on Earth.
This seems true to me. I am more in contact with Jordan now than I was at any
time from when he left for college at eighteen until he was murdered at
twenty-three. I consult with him often — about everything from family issues to
personal choices. I send and receive messages of love and encouragement. And we
are writing this book together.
I cannot hold or kiss my boy, which is a tremendous loss. But I can talk to him
anytime, anywhere. There is no barrier — in this or in the spirit world — that
can keep us apart.
The Struggle with Doubt
The only thing now standing between us is my own doubt. The doubt visits often,
whispering that my conversations with Jordan are wishes rather than truth, and
that all he has taught me is a fabrication, my own thoughts attributed to him.
When in doubt, I withdraw. I seek him less. I feel frightened that I’ll discover
something false in what he says, which will destroy my faith in us.
The doubt is unavoidable. I’ve learned that I must live with its whisperings
even while I listen to Jordan. The doubt never leaves, because in this place
absolute truth is hidden from us. Mother Teresa wrote that most of her life was
spent with no sense of the presence of god. And whether or not the god she
thought existed is really there, this dialectic remains: the quest for truth and
the uncertainty are inescapably one experience.
Jordan says we are like shortwave radios, tuned to the frequency of some distant
voice. Through the static, we pick up a phrase or two. We try to sew that into
some coherence, but we have caught only a part of it. Through desire or
projection, we may supply the missing words and get most of it wrong. But still
we must listen.
I’ve learned one more thing about doubt. My need to send Jordan love and feel
his love in return is bigger than doubt, bigger than the uncertainty and
loneliness of living here without being able to hug my boy.
*Excerpted from
Seeking
Jordan: How I Learned the Truth about Death and the Invisible Universe.
Copyright ©2016 by Matthew McKay, PhD. Reprinted with permission from New World
Library.
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Seeking Jordan
on Amazon.com, click here!
Beginning the Conversation
An Excerpt* from
Seeking Jordan
Time moves us downstream from each loss. The living relationship is further
away, left on the bank where we last embraced, where the last words were spoken.
Across that distance stretches silence, the helplessness of what can’t be fixed
or undone.
The last time I saw Jordan was at lunch at Saul’s, a deli he was fond of. I
can’t remember what we spoke of. He was doing well — a job he liked, a lovely
young woman he’d recently moved in with. I do remember the corner where I hugged
him goodbye, feeling his thick, wiry hair against my cheek, his strong arms
around me. I said, “I love you,” as I had thousands of times, and then I began
half-running to my car, late for something.
I had no inkling this was the moment we were leaving each other, and that every
moment since would bear me further from his arms, his eyes, his sweetness. It
was so ordinary, so embedded in our daily lives, that it held no portents of
loss. And when I look back, I feel as if we are still there, still hugging on
that corner. I can feel him holding me, and sometimes I can believe the embrace
still exists — that I can have it, reenter it anytime I want.
But time moves us downriver. I craved more than memory, more than the few words
I’d heard in Chicago. I wanted a two-way conversation, like we’d had at the
deli. I wanted to ask questions and hear answers. I wanted to know my boy again.
In hopes of having that conversation, I consulted Ralph Metzner, a psychologist
who has learned the art of channeled writing — an ancient technique for reaching
across the divide of death and communicating to souls in the spirit world. Ralph
himself lost a son, and he spent years searching for ways to reach him.
There was another connection: Jordan and Ralph’s stepson, Eli, had been best
friends. I knew instinctively that anyone I connected to through Jordan could be
trusted. And Ralph had known Jordan well.
***
His office is set up in the former dining room of an old Victorian. High
mahogany wainscoting reaches to a shelf near the ceiling; there is a crystal
chandelier. Ralph, a thin man with wispy white hair and eyes that have a wounded
look, explains the process so I can learn the steps and do it at home. Channeled
writing works best when it is done in the same place with a set ritual. It helps
to have an object that connects you to the dead, and it is also beneficial to
first engage in a practice that helps you enter a receptive state. Breathing
meditations work well, as do candles for focusing attention.
“How will I know I’m not making it up?” I ask him.
“You can’t escape uncertainty,” Ralph replies. “There will always be doubt. Just
listen to Jordan; see what he says. Your feelings about it will guide you.”
***
I have a desk that my parents gave me when I was eleven. Whenever I sit at it, I
feel how objects connect us to people who are gone, and sometimes to an earlier
version of ourselves. I sat here as a child, doing homework, distracting myself
with small toys, and looking into the enticing darkness of my backyard.
Now I sit here alone, assembling objects: A cobalt blue glass mask, with a lit
candle behind it, that my daughter, Bekah, brought from Mexico. And a blue
business card Jordan created while he was in high school. It reads, Jordan
McKay, CEO, Omega Technologies. There was no Omega Technologies, but it got him
into countless trade shows for Apple and other technology giants.
I begin with my breath, counting the exhalations till I reach ten, then starting
over. I focus on my diaphragm, the genesis and center of the breath. Some
spiritual traditions recognize this spot as the locus of “wise mind,” where we
can access the deepest truth of our lives. When thoughts arise, I notice and
label them — “There’s a thought” — and return attention to my breath. After a
while my mind settles, and a calm begins that touches every part of my body.
I suddenly wonder if this is some kind of hokum I’ve fallen prey to. Then I
worry that I haven’t done it right, that I haven’t prepared sufficiently to hear
Jordan’s words. “There’s a thought...and
another thought.”
I stare at the flickering candle behind the mask. I imagine that it is Jordan’s
presence, like the sanctuary light in the Catholic churches of my childhood. And
now my mind begins to quiet again. I open my notebook and write the most urgent
question: Are you happy?
The answer is instantaneous; it arrives before I’ve finished the question. It
comes in the form of a whispered thought, with the timbre and pitch of Jordan’s
voice. I write:
More than you can know.
Then I write more questions and record the answers.
Do you miss me?
I have you with me.
What are you doing?
Studying. Learning things. Getting ready for what I have to do next time.
Next time?
I’ll be back soon. I want to help the planet. Last time I wasn’t going to have
time to do anything, so I practiced focusing my will, finding beauty.
How can I connect to you?
Watch for me when I come to you. Watch the signs. Feel me inside. Trust that
feeling when you sense I’m with you. The circle stays strong with love. Just
remember your love for me. Open the channel so you can hear — just like you’re
doing now. This is the circle, letting me through. I love you, Dad.
That’s how it is. I’m right with you. I’m here with you and Mom. Just feel it.
It’s real. My arms are around you. Always.
What is the circle?
The practice of love keeps the circle. It’s like a discipline. Practicing love
isn’t collecting sad memories. It’s feeling the whole person, without thought,
without judgment. It’s holding all of them at once.
The circle is all of us, living and dead. All connected, all talking to each
other. It’s no different now than when we talked at Saul’s. Our relationship is
the same, Dad.
I’m exhausted; I blow out the candle. I want to believe everything I’ve heard,
but I hate self-deception. It’s a response I inherited from my father, a man who
despised the ways people lie to themselves to justify their needs and actions.
But suddenly it’s clear: I will have to live with that remembered contempt in
order to keep listening. If I want to open the channel so my boy can talk to me,
then I’ll also have to live with doubt, perhaps even ridicule.
# # #
*Excerpted from
Seeking
Jordan: How I Learned the Truth about Death and the Invisible Universe.
Copyright ©2016 by Matthew McKay, PhD. Reprinted with permission from New World
Library.
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Seeking Jordan
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Matthew McKay, PhD,
is the author of
Seeking Jordan
and numerous other books. He is a clinical psychologist, professor at the Wright
Institute in Berkeley, CA, and founder and publisher at New Harbinger
Publications. Visit him online at
http://www.SeekingJordan.com.